Stephanie Covington Armstrong does not fit the stereotype of a woman with an eating disorder. She grew up poor and hungry in the inner city. Foster care, sexual abuse, and overwhelming insecurity defined her early years. But the biggest difference is her race: Stephanie is black.
In this moving first-person narrative, Armstrong describes her struggle as a black woman with a disorder consistently portrayed as a white woman’s problem. Trying to escape her selfhatred and her food obsession by never slowing down, Stephanie becomes trapped in a downward spiral. Finally, she can no longer deny that she will die if she doesn’t get help, overcome her shame, and conquer her addiction to using food as a weapon against herself.
"Armstrong's perspective . . . will go a long way toward breaking down the myths about eating disorders that are preventing so many, many people of color from seeking the treatment they need." —Aimee Liu, author, Gaining: The Truth About Life After Eating Disorders
"Hurrah for a woman bold enough to throw open the closet door and tell the truth about her relationship with food." —Hill Harper, actor, CSI: NY, and author, Letters to a Young Brother
Stephanie's voice is brutally naked on every page with acute accuracy for readers to remember, forget, or learn from. While we, through her poetic pen, are in the rooms with Stephanie and her unwelcomed companion "bulimia" , she describes eloquently the schizophrenic nature of the disease and the cultural complexities of her suffering - emblematic of men and women in the millions - and the abysmal isolation, mental prison, and in some cases death that occurs during the ungraceful clawback up the narrow path to unpromised sanity. And sometimes, as the writer has described through her own example of diligent introspection and seeking help, one can become whole again. -Victoria Rowell, actress, author, New York Times Bestseller The Women Who Raised Me, a memoir
"The sooner we . . . confront all of the issues—like food addiction, depression, and sexual abuse—that keep us hurting and hiding, the sooner we can begin to heal. Armstrong's book is an answer to millions of black women's prayers." —Meri Nana-Ama Danquah, author, Willow Weep for Me: A Black Woman's Journey Through Depression
"Harrowing and compelling . . . a long-overdue look at eating disorders among African American women . . . a gripping read [with] universal appeal." —Stephen McCauley, author, The Object of My Affection